Just to find out the truth
Gay guy without gaiety in his life thinks he has a lifeEncounter…
Yesterday it happened again: the school begun. And I had to get up real early to take the moving van back. Then I was at school two hours in advance, I used the time working on my best friend’s birthday present, it’s going to be a printed lady composed of characters of different colors. It’s going to be quite cool actually.
At school we got a new assignment, a sauna, but I skip to the part I really want to share:
After school I went swimming. There I often peek at other men’s bodies, of course. But I’d like them to look at me too. Yeah, I am sort of an exhibitionist. So, at the steamy room I’m ready to show off if someone looks interested.
I do go to a swimming hall that is more of an family place than place where there would be more gay guys. That’s because it’s the best swimming hall and I keep telling to myself, that it’s less probable to get some action there. I don’t like the fact that every time that I am at swimming hall, I secretly hope I’d get to see someone stroke his cock, and even maybe let him stroke mine.
Well, I hadn’t had such action at all in ages, and had really concentrated on the swimming part. But yesterday, in the steam room, in the corner a man was in a very, ahem, interesting position when I sat next to him, and soon I noticed he was semihard and stroked himself from time to time. He wasn’t that obvious, so I wasn’t really that daring to look openly. Then I went to the showers and he eventually came there too, and continued stroking himself and I got a better look at his whole body. I was so turned on by him… We went back to the steam room and he stroked himself more openly to me, and I stroked myself too. Then people entered the room and we stopped, at least I did, he continued slowly. When more people got in to the room I managed to move right next to him. Then he left the room and slightly touched my hand on his way.
He was in the showers washing up, and I did that too, we went to the lockers and got dressed. At this point my thoughts were really racing in my head, I was thinking that what if he suggests we continue somewhere else, or something like that.
I exited the place before him, and went to a place where I could see him regardless the door he’d be using for exiting. Well, I saw him come out of the building, he looked at me while walking to his car and finally drove away.
At this point, I had already realized, that I had met him once before. At the same occassion, and it was the hottest encounter I had had in the swimming hall, he actually stroked my cock in the showers. That time I watched him go in his car and he drove past me, and I really regretted that I didn’t just get in to his car that time. This time I realized that I actually am dating a lovable man…
I recognized his car, he still had the same one. This time I got is licence plate number, and with that I could dig up his name. I don’t think I would ever contact him, but I find names interesting, it’s interesting to see what names people have, do they correlate on the image of their names.
Okay, this time the multitasking part includes the jacking off, thinking of the story made me hard.
It was a really nice day, until…
Yesterday was my best friend’s birthday party, and he introduced his girlfriend for the first time. She was very nice girl, I wasn’t that much of an ass, I managed to be relatively funny, I guess. It was a nice evening, we ate and drank a bit, played some Pitchcar Mini, and I actually came in second, that’s really good for me, because I really suck in the game. After we had finished our tournament, we went to a nice bar nearby, it’s called Luft. Stylish, but doesn’t have the snobbish feeling to it. I reached one goal of those I set for the evening. I got myself drunk! I guess spent more money that I could’ve really afforded, but I think it was actually worth it. I got home quite early for an evening out, but then managed to stay up for three more hours, yes, jacking off, even thought I wasn’t really horny at all. I guess I just felt like it anyway…
The rest of the night went on, I didn’t sleep well, and I woke up early to drive a moving van. The moving went okay, I recruited most of the yesterday’s party people to the job, and we were really fast. Afterwards we decided to fix some dinner for the whole gang, and then we played some Pitchcar again.
My brother had invited us at their place tonight, but we hadn’t really answered them yet. So, in the middle of the gaming, I got a message from them, asking if we were coming or not. I then called the boyfriend and asked if he had gotten my message that I sent him a bit earlier, asking him if we were going and telling him that it was so nice opportunity to spend more time with those friends that were all gathered at my best friend’s place. So, as I called him, he said he had got the message, but didn’t answer because I had promised to call. He called me when I was moving, and I said that we should talk later, because I was in the middle of moving process… And he then had made dinner, apparently for me too, and was very disappointed that I hadn’t called. Very understandable, but still, I don’t feel that I acted that bad again…
And the result is that now I’m alone home, don’t know if I want to go to my brother’s, don’t know if I want to go to the boyfriend’s place. Actually I do know, I don’t want to go anywhere, especially to his place, because I just feel so bad about everything. I hate this anxiety and bad feeling in my guts. I really, really think that it would be easier if I didn’t have to please him anymore. I felt really bad when I begun on this post, and cheered up a bit when writing about the fun in the past two days, and got back to the whole anxiety theme in the end. So this is where my holiday has gone, life really, really sucks.
Surprised by the light around when exiting the movie theatre at noon
First of all – as I’m watching Stargate at the same time, again – on the ninth season, Daniel’s got beard. Oh, I like it, although, there are better looking men. But the thing I really love, is the character Vala Mal Doran. Hot chick with a annoyingly cool sense of humour “Let’s have babies!” and an accent of a very nice kind. I had to peek at StargateWiki if she was going to appear later on in the show, and I was very delighted. Nothing spoiled though. Yeah, don’t know anything from the future, no.
After all, I got my battery charged, and my charger back. It’s relieving. Another thing that is actually relieving, is that I had a nice evening with the boyfriend. And sex.
Okay, now the episode ended, I’ll put on the next one. But before that, I have to make sure I get in time to pick up the car. My friend is moving, actually to a flat in the same floor that I’m habitating, and I promised to drive the moving van. I have to pick it up at four at some weird place in the outskirts.
This computer sucks. It takes several minutes just to open a video file… But anyway, I don’t really have time to watch the whole episode, but I guess it doesn’t matter.
This day has been a weird one, I’ve woken up real early, and then I went to the cinema. It was actually quite cool being in the biggest movie theatre in the country, being just one out of 15 people watching the movie. And almost seven hundred empty seats. It had a very casual feeling to it, my legs on the seat in front of me, candy, and stuff. I loved the big dark space around me. I guess the movie was okay as well. It didn’t convince me that Hayden Christiansen would be desirable. Slightly hot or okay, I’d say, but he manages to look arrogant and self-assured all the time. Even though he’s playing a good guy with a heart and no desire to kill. Jamie Bell was actually okay. At least a lot better than Hayden.
Yesterday when going to see the boyfriend, I stared a man in the underground (that’s a hobby, fun thing to do when a suitable man appears), and yes, he had some glances and then he stared at me. Usually I’ve just spent the ride staring a man with a blank face, but this time I decided to have a teeny-weeny smile at the end of the journey. Last glance, turned away smiling (smile with a slight flirt to it, you know the type), and exited the train. Fun.
But now I must seize the beloved people at SGC, and get going.
A modern person without a phone
Last night my phone’s battery died, and as I was trying to find the charger, I remembered it’s at my boyfriend’s place, his charger isn’t working and I took it there to get his phone charged. He does use his work phone at the moment, so I guess he wouldn’t really need it anymore.
This wouldn’t probably be a problem, last time my battery was about to die, I just went to his place and charged it. This time I just would like to stay home, at least till he comes from work. I’m not feeling so good about him being in my life at the moment, and I really prefer being at home.
I didn’t sleep that much last night, for one I jacked off at a late hour, and I had restless dreams about whether or not I would wake up in time in the morning. After realizing that my phone’s battery was dead and because of that I didn’t have an alarm clock, I had to find one on the net and try to set it up. It did actually work, but when I woke up, I set it to wake up again in half an hour. But I managed to fuck it up and then I had to run to see the psychologist. Luckily I got some breakfast on the way and was only five minutes late.
I go to the psychologist in order to solve some problems with my studies, and my problems with relationships aren’t really her concern. I think I should probably go see a shrink that would care for my problems at whole. But on the other hand I don’t really think those professionals could help me.
As I’m the ultimate multitasker, I’m simultaneously watching Stargåte SG-1 as I write, I’m already on 16th episode of the 8th season. Although Stargate has somewhat become a bit more lame on the eight episode, the humour in the series has actually become more interesting.
Now I shall continue watching the show and drinking some soda that my brother took me from Sweden. Maybe I’ll even continue multitasking by doing the dishes and tiding the place up.
Or then not. Maybe I’ll open a bottle of wine I didn’t have the chance to open yesterday.
